Insecurity I Am

 

Insecurity

I Am

 

I am so glad God said I AM THAT I AM

No title can describe God and no title can describe you

So that I can say I am that I am by the grace of God

If God made me capable of it, I can do it

If chairs need to be set up for a meeting,

 I can do it even though I might be the pastor of the church

If there are others to set up the chairs

So I can be in God’s Word to minister to others, I can be free to do that as well

Be in the moment by recognizing God’s work in you

And how you can use that to unify God’s people and His plan

 

 

I Am

 

In my early 20’s I was looking

to find out who I was.

 

I was involved in starting a church

and knew God had called me.

 

I had studied Ephesians 4.

 

 Paul writes…

 

 “There is One”

There is one body and one Spirit—

 just as you were called to one hope when you were called—

one Lord, one faith, one baptism;

one God and Father of all,

who is over all and through all and in all.

Ephesians 4:3-6

 

This call to “oneness” played and

still plays a strong roll in my life.

 

Yet, I saw myself as different.

 

I knew I was not like everyone else.

 

 There was something special

about the way God made me.

 

As I read on in the fourth chapter…

 

 I began to wonder what shape

 God had made me to be.

 

Paul said God gave as

gifts to the church people…

 

It was he who gave some to be apostles,

some to be prophets, some to be evangelists,

and some to be pastors and teachers,

 to prepare God's people for works of service,

so that the body of Christ may be built up until

we all reach unity in the faith and

in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature,

attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

Ephesians 4:11-13

 

I was very insecure about who I was.

 

All my life up till that time,

I studied people, trying to

discover someone like me.

 

As I studied Ephesians 4,

 I wondered which of

the 5 Gift Ministries I was.

 

I thought of being an apostle to the world.

 

I could see some prophetic gifting’s.

 

I wanted to win souls,

 but it didn’t seem to fit.

 

I remember struggling in

my mind and in prayer.

 

It seemed there were so many others

who felt confident in who they were,

but I was not sure.

 

My prayer became more intense

as I questioned God on who

and what He made me to be.

 

It was like a title would solve

all my issues of insecurity.

 

I remember God answering my prayers.

 

But it did not come as I had hoped for,

 in a nice neat package.

 

He took me back in time,

 a time when God answered

Moses’ question.

 

When Moses, who was very insecure

about who he was,

said to God when the children of Israel

asked who was sending him.

   

And Moses said unto God,

Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel,

 and shall say unto them,

The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you;

and they shall say to me,

What is his name? What shall I say unto them?

Exodus 3:13 KJV

 

God’s answer spoke to me…

 

And God said unto Moses,

I AM THAT I AM: and he said,

 Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel,

 I AM hath sent me unto you.

Exodus 3:14 KJV

 

I could say…

 

 I AM THAT I AM.

I

So, I did not have to worry about a title.

 

I did not need to have a label.

 

I could just be who God made me

to be and let that play out in my life.

 

Years later, many people recognized me

as a pastor and called me pastor.

 

 But as I have a strong pastor’s heart

and loved the role of a pastor…

 

 I realize the title of pastor

does not define all me.

 

I also see that I pastored

differently than other pastors.

 

I was and am unique and so are you.

 

We can get caught up in

titles, brands, and labels…

 

Comparing ourselves with others

or current expectations of others

and ourselves.

 

 But you are who God made you to be.

 

There is variety, uniqueness, talents,

personally, experiences, giftings,

and more that make you different…

 

That God has deposited into

your life to shape who you are.

 

There is no one else like you.

 

Because God has shaped you as a unique

specialty tool for the work He wants to do.

 

I am a ‘DYI Guy’ and I am sure I

have thousands of tools, all different,

 so that I can do all things.

 

When I was younger and could not afford tools…

 

 I used a screwdriver and hammer

for almost everything and frustration,

breaking things, was too often the result.

 

God does not need another one of you,

 if He did, He would not need you.

 

He never loses a tool and always knows

where you are at when He needs you.

 

You may feel like you are in the tool box

while other tools are used more often.

 

But you are what God made you

and with a special purpose.

Remember Ephesians 4…

 

 All giftings do have one purpose.

 

Although each of us are shaped differently

by God, we all have one purpose…

 

To bring unity.

 

We are all to work together

for God’s purpose and plan.

 

I am so glad God said…

 

 I AM THAT I AM

 

No title can describe God

and no title can describe you.

 

So that I can say…

 

 I am that I am by the grace of God.

 

If God made me capable of it…

 

 I can do it!

 

If chairs need to be set up for a meeting,

 I can do it even though I might

be the pastor of the church.

 

If there are others to set up the chairs,

 so I can be in God’s Word to minister

to others, I can be free to do that as well.

 

Be in the moment by recognizing God’s

work in you and how you can use that

 to unify God’s people and His plan.

 

 

Scripture Reading

 

Exodus 3:13-14 KJV

 

13 And Moses said unto God, Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel, and shall say unto them, The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you; and they shall say to me, What is his name? what shall I say unto them?

 

14 And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you.